Where did MsPokerTn go... have you seen her?

I have played alot of poker in the last few weeks, either online, at a casino, or a home game.  I have not been happy with any of my results.  I have played limit, no-limit, and tournaments.  All the same results, not good.

So, where the hell am I.  I need to find MsPokerTN; the aggressive, confident, poker player that I once thought I was and I need to find her fast.

Last Wednesday we played event #11 of the home league and I was completely 100% on tilt.  I got on tilt for the simple fact that I was so card dead for the first hour or two and every time I tried to make a move someone would come over the top and there was no way I could continue the play.  This happened time after time after time and I wasn't happy about it.  At one point, I felt like Poker Brat, Phil Hellmuth, as I lost my cool when the BB accused me of not putting in my total SB.  I honestly felt like I had put my total SB out there and everyone was making change for their ante's.  Anyway, I ended up just mucking my hand with frustration.  Sorry for the outburst.  It's poker.  I eneded up going out in 7th place, horrible finish.  I am still the point leader, for now, but it's getting to close for comfort.  I have to make some adjustments and make them quickly. 

Last night I played in a 30 person $100 freeze out tournament at a hme game.  I only made one, maybe two real plays the entire night, which is completely disappointing.  I ended up going out with pocket J's against a AQ with a Q on the flop.  At this point in the game, I had $3500, blinds were $400/$800 so I had to make a move.  I did raise it pre-flop, got one caller, checked after the flop, he pushed me all in and I called. 

On the way home my mind was running 100 miles a minute thinking about what I did wrong.  The list would be shorter if I was thinking about what I did right.  Not much. 

I always felt like one reason why I was comfortable with my aggresive style was that I really didn't care about the money or the points per say for the home league.  Not to say the money doesn't matter but for example; if I'm playing in a $1/$2 NL game and I have $300 in front of me, I never thought "wow, if I can't push all in because I might lose $300".  I always play with what I can afford to play with.  I think lately I am thinking about the money, the points, all the crap that I shouldn't be thinking about.

I have to get my old self back and suit up with the style of poker I am comfortable and confident in playing.  I only have 8 months before the main event and I have to get it in order soon, before my chance to dance disappears right before my eyes. 

I have some tricks up my sleeve that I won't share here but watch out folks, the old MsPokerTN is about to emerge.

PEACE!

I have nothing to say... are you interested?

Didn't realize that I haven't posted in almost a month.  Poker hasn't been real exciting for me lately.  Feel like I'm in a bad mind set when it comes to poker.  I have a desire to play more than ever but haven't been able to which is frustrating.

Home League Update:
So, since the last post we had Event #10 of the home league.  It was an interesting one.  One guy was unable to attend so we blinded him out and he actually took 3rd place.  These are the rules we set forth prior to starting so these are the rules we will keep, I see no issue with it, personally.  There are a few ways to look at it:

1. Having someone not show increases my odd's of placing higher in the bracket, this is a good thing for me and everyone else.  Although it didn't appear that way last month, I do believe this is the case.
2. Having this knowledge moving forward, it does give confidence that if it is required to miss a date, it's not as bad as it might appear, as placing higher than 9th is surely the case.

Losers:
I scheduled a Tournament and Cash game for last Friday night.  Honestly, I am not sure why it's so hard to get a home game going, seems to be difficult for many people, including me.  I had 8 RSVP's a week in advance, and was excited about it.  Then at the 11th hour two people cancelled.  Now, this tells me a few things:

1. Either something more exciting came up last minute, or
2. This person is a complete loser.

From personal experience, I would bet $1K it's #2.  I decided to cancel the game as I do not enjoy playing short handed. 

Tunica Trip:
Took a trip to Tunica on Saturday in hopes of getting my poker appetite fulfilled yet left hungrier than ever.  I was in Tunica for about 16 hours and only got to play about 3 hours in total.  Just enough to rise my frustration level to EXTREME capacity.    I played one hand so badly that I am frankly embarrashed to even give details.  Needless to say, I'm still thinking about that hand and might still be on tilt from it.

WSOP Main Event:
Not sure if anyone has been getting updates on the final table but they played for over 17 hours on Saturday with a total of 14 hours and 30 minutes at the table before they finally got down to heads up; Moon and Cada.  The oldest and youngest of the final table goes head to head.

I get twitter updates from WSOP with hold card hand for hand updates.  I can't believe how many bad beats where handed out at the final table, leaving both HU players taking their positions by pure luck of the cards.  At one point Cada was down to 2 million now he has 158 million and getting crazy one outers to get there.

Ivey went out 7th when his AK against Moon's AQ and a Q came on the flop.  Ivey didn't improve and it's all done.  I really wanted this guy to win the thing.  He really is one of the best players to ever play the game.  It's reported he was on Full Tilt hours after playing $2k/$4k NL.  Maybe he was still on tilt?

ESPN Coverage of Main Event:

So we have the longest final table in history taking place and ESPN has 2 hours MAX to cover it.  We get 24 hours of ESPN coverage showing various hands over 8 days and nearly 6500 players and then when we get to the top 9 players we get to only see 1% of the hands in play.  I don't like this.  The longer the final table plays out, the more I dislike this format.  All televised WPT events are only of the final table.  All WSOP televised events are only of the final table.  Why not show us 26 hour total of the final table instead of 2 hours??  Personally, I think I would get more enjoyment out of this format.

What's Next:

Who the fuck knows, roll the dice and see. 

PEACE!